June 19, 2013

Langit.

Rindu hadir, perlahan-lahan menyusup ditengah kepasrahan hati.
Awan berlarian, kemudian melukis langit dengan begitu indahnya.
Menciptakan imaji indah akan adanya sebuah pertemuan.
Sebuah pertemuan di langit? tanyamu.
Aku tak menjawab, begitupun dengan awan itu.
Hanya tersenyum. Senyum yang mengisyaratkan sebuah arti: bahwa segala sesuatu yang nampaknya mustahil, dapat saja terjadi.
Kau tersenyum. Aku sudah tersenyum lebih dahulu.
Tak lama berselang...
awan-awan putih bersih yang melukiskan langit dan menciptakan senyum itu pergi,
digantikan dengan awan-awan hitam yang jahat dan membuat langit tak terlihat lagi indahnya.
Awan-awan hitam itu tidak sendiri.
Mereka membawa serta petir dan kilat, yang semakin menambah semarak langit itu.
Semarak luka.
Para penikmat langit menggerutu dan mengeluh.
Mereka benci awan-awan hitam itu.
Awan-awan yang merebut keindahan langit dan menggantinya dengan pemandangan yang menakutkan dan mengoyak hati.
Oh, sesungguhnya, mereka hanya tak tahu; awan-awan hitam itu hanya ingin menangis.

Ah. Aku hampir lupa..
Sekarang, bagaimana dengan aku dan kau?
Masihkah rindu akan menorehkan sebuah cerita di langit?
Kalau untukku,
Aku tak peduli apakah langit sedang indah dengan awan-awan putih bersih, atau langit sedang mengerikan dengan awan-awan hitam menakutkan. Ada satu hal yang tetap sama: aku merindukanmu.
dan aku tahu pasti, kita akan bertemu di langit.
Dengan atau tanpa awan-awan pembawa luka.
Aku tersenyum, kau tersenyum.

Ditengah keindahan bukit,
2013.

June 1, 2013

Some should-have(s).

I should've forgotten you since yesterday..
I should've accepted our differences since the first time we got a click.
I should've kept the distance between us since the first time I felt that you wanna know me better, as I wanna know you better either..
I should've followed people's suggestions to us since the first time they knew about our closeness.
I shouldn't have let my feeling grow, since I realized I have that special feeling towards you..

Thankyou, for bringing so many beautiful twilights to me that I've finally known another thing able to be enjoyed..
It's June already, by the way.
The best time to memorize all things about you in these last few months..

No regret. Just to keep the memory stay.
1st June, 00.52.

May 26, 2013

Let's talk, Moon.

Are you sad?
Eh, um.. just a little bit.
Need shoulder to lean on?
No, I am okay.
Then stop crying.
Actually I am trying but..., I just can't.
That means you're not okay.
Just don't try to hide anything from me, oh dear.
Listen to me..
I may not be able to wipe your tears directly,
To offer my shoulder to be leaned on,
To kiss you dearly.
But just remember that I'm here.
I may not have anything but the lights to warm you.
Don't you think that night is colder than noon even morning?
So, remember...
I'm always here,
filling your night with a smile.

Little talks between the full moon and me.

Bandung, 26 May 2013. 08.50 pm.

May 24, 2013

(hanya) re-post.

Keinginanku untuk memilikimu sama besar dengan keinginanku untuk melupakanmu.
Dan keduanya, sama-sama gagal.
- @Delune

May 7, 2013

Time's games

There were you.
There were you giving the attention.
I was trying to get calm, keep the distance, deem as if nothing would ever happen between you and me.
'til there was the time when I was starting to think about the analogy of growing flower.
That happened well, as well as... I have never expected.
Time just went well.
'til there was the time when the other thoughts appeared, screaming out loud in front of my brain (or heart?), saying:
What the hell are you doing?
It's not only your stupid feeling existing in this world, ya know?
So please, use your brain and heart, before that feeling ends up bringing you only to vain.

I didn't listen to it...
'til there is the time, by now,
that happens. That really does.
And I was stupid then.